Thirsty Thursday

Today is Thirsty Thursday. That means a water, tea and coffee fast. I did eat like 4 almonds, just for a crunch. But otherwise I'm fasting. Yesterday I ate too much so today is recovery. Tomorrow I am eating sushi and nothing else. Saturday I got talked into going to IHOP with some friends, but their breakfasts look so gross (even when I'm in binge mode they look gross - who needs dough stuffed with sugary "fruit" topped with whipped cream and MORE sugar for breakfast??) so I'm going for THE healthiest thing on the menu, whatever that is. Maybe they'll have like a spinach omelette or something. I think going into it with a plan is a lot safer than winging it. I'll be less tempted to lose control. Despite my binge last night, I'm 138 right now. I think I want to be 130 by halloween. Doesn't sound like much, but these pounds are being very stubborn and it will take some work. But I have a lot of new resolve to stay ana-centric. I am very angry at Josh for a fight we had where I broke up with him and he talked me back into staying, but I really don't want to. (Long story.) I'm supposed to give him the chance to change. We'll see. In the meantime I'm doing all the starving I want to punish him by showing him what self control and THIN looks like. Fuck him, I can take all the laxatives and do all the cutting I want.

So Friday sushi, Saturday the healthiest thing that IHOP sells, Sunday fast. I can do it. I think if I sneak in a fast every three days or so, I may drop weight really fast. I need to, I'm such a fucking cow.

Oh BTW, welcome back Becca! Missed you!

Starve on.