canker sores are like Ana buttons

The shrooms really brought out an oral fixation in me. I was playing with my tongue ring all night and I even recall recommending a tongue piercing to Josh because "they're just amazing". I also started chewing on the inside of my lip which turned into a big sore spot which turned into a gigantic canker sore. He was doing the same thing but amazingly I'm the only one that ended up with a sore. Whats worse, I left early for work to get orajel but I didn't leave early enough so I had to suffer all day yesterday. Its so bad it makes the adjacent teeth hurt. I'm avoiding eating because everything that touches it just kills. I had a strawberry yesterday and the juice was like sanding it and salting it. Ouch. So, if you absolutely can't avoid eating, I suggest taking some shrooms, chewing on your lip for 6 hours without even realizing it, then reaping the benefits of a gigantic sore spot in your mouth >_<

As far as that salsa recipe goes, we really just make it up as we go along. We put in finely diced purple or sweet onions, finely diced tomatoes (you can use canned ones too but fresh ones taste better!), 2-3 palmfuls of diced cilantro, 1-2 diced fresh jalapenos (fresh ones AREN'T that spicy, I promise - it turns out pretty mild/medium spice, as long as you keep the seeds out), some minced garlic (in my case, a TON of garlic - I fucking love garlic!) a can of black beans (you can omit these, I bet they're the most calorie dense item, but they add fiber), and sometimes we add 1-2 small jars of store bought salsa, just to bulk it up a bit. You could also add peppers, corn, tomato paste, whatever strikes your fancy. Its all veggies, so the most calories are in the chips, and I bet you could substitute chips for celery, green pepper wedges, pita chips, etc. It turns out like the pico de gallo you get when you go to a nice mexican restaurant. Mmmm..

Enjoy and experiment, if you try it. We made a big batch and its lasting us a week! Its a meal in itself!

Except it irritates my mouth-cancer.

My weight lately is annoying me. (Doesn't it always??) I was 151.4, then the next day I was 153.6 (after eating hardly ANYTHING the previous day, mind you), and then I lost control and ate TWO hot dogs at work, after which my weight dropped back down to 151.4. Does my body have a mind of its own? [read: yes] Is my scale on the fritz? All I want is to be skinny. Is that so hard??? I feel like life is passing me by. I just turned 23 and I don't want to have huge thighs and a #@&%$ belly pooch and STILL be above 130 lbs by the time I'm 25. I want to LIVE my life. These are the years I'll wish I could re-live over and over and I'm languishing in what should be the best time of my life. I want a life makeover. I want a life do-over.

@crazy rose - welcome to the community! I look forward to following your story!
@carly - thanks for the "overdosing on redbull" suggestion! Next time I'm jonesing for coke I'll try that! XD
@princess smile - the cool thing about mushrooms (at least in the doses I've taken it - the most being 1/16 oz.) is that even though you're tripping and you're seeing walls "breathe" and things in the room "dance", you're not seeing anything that ISN'T there. Everything in the room is moving, but you're not seeing anything that simply isn't in the room (i.e. murderous clowns :D) Thats why I wouldn't want to "trip my balls off" (take a TON of shrooms, at least until I'm ready for that) or take LSD, because I think the trip would be more intense and I'd see things that weren't there. Like, watching my futon turn into a dolphin. Or my cat in multicolor. Or something like that. You're brave to take all the party drugs, for some reason I'm scared of those! (said the pot calling the kettle black)

I am camping in T-minus 36 hours! I am leaving right after work to travel two hours up north by myself in the dark with spotty cell reception! Woo! I've already taken that journey before and it was scary but this time I'll have Garmy (my ultra-creative moniker for my Garmin GPS) (hope I just used the word moniker in the right context or I'm going to look like a huge dumbass). I need to keep suckin' down coffee and go clean out my dumpster on wheels (aka my car) so I can travel Northward tomorrow! I am excited.

I hope you all do well today. I hope I do well today. Lets do well today! Think hugely skinny thoughts! And then try to work out in your cranium how something can be hugely skinny!

Yeah!

erm...

okay.

I'm just making this awkward now.....

Peace out homeslice(s),

Emily