Weekend Off Again! :D

Seriously, I could get used to this having a Saturday and Sunday thing again.

Mandatory OT, working 6 (sometimes 7!) days a week can suck my proverbial left nut.

I had a catastrophic binge on Thursday on sweet and sour chicken, pork fried rice, 3 (3!) egg rolls, one of those sugary chinese donuts, and a fortune cookie. I was hungry that day, and when someone handed me the menu to order at work, I knew my day was fucked from that point. I was yelling at myself "you don't HAVE to do this, you know", but I did anyway. Fortunately it hasn't seemed to completely undo any progress I've made since getting over my cold.

Liking the idea of Flushed's liquid fast, I decided to do the same for myself, for two days. Yesterday I had a chicken wrap at around noon, and that is the last solid thing to pass these lips. (Wait...do tootsie pops count? I had one of those too. Sue me.) Its been 24 hours so far. I have no trouble 24 hour fast-ing....but getting over that hump is when I start to get all manic and binge-y. Of course, a liquid fast is better than a nothing-at-all fast. Liquids might help keep me on track. I'm not eating solids again until tomorrow at 11pm when Josh gets home and we're having chicken masala and couscous with some form of vegetable. Making dinner and making myself "available" to him is how I get out of the A: griping about how we hardly "do it" anymore and B: Annual V-day Chocolate Crisis (I told him not to get me anything - it helps that he's dieting with me.)

Right now I'm sipping some spicy V8 and getting ready to venture out into the Real World. All this time off...I suddenly don't know what to do with it! I'm formulating a plan to start a knitting project that is more complicated than the endless scarves, mittens, and hats I've been doing the last few years. I'm ready to move into more scary territory: cables, purses, SWEATERS....pray for me, shit could get scary.

So instead of playing Bingey Mc. Eatsalot today and spending hard earned dough on FOOD, I will hopefully come home with armloads of knitting supplies and maybe a new book.

I just don't know. I have the delightful dizzy feeling right now. And when I get that I feel like I can't think straight. I can't make decisions because I can't think. I like the dizzy...but I don't like the not thinking part. Oh well, an Adderall and a hit of Mary Jane should cure that.

If I'm desperate I'll even splurge for a latte.

Okay, this post is getting more pointless as it goes. Just updating to say liquid fast until tomorrow, then eating dinner, and maybe more liquid fasting, if it seems to work nicely?

Bye folks. I'm off to enjoy my days off! WOOHOO! Post tomorrow? Maybe.

Peace

Emily

::EDIT:: I'm 147.2 lbs! Sweet and sour chicken be damned, I've hit another milestone, and only two pounds away from a mini-goal w/reward! I hope when I reach 145 it STICKS this time!