Survey (I'm Bored)

What can I say? Its two in the morning and I'm tired but not ready to go to bed yet. My additions in parentheses. :)

About Me

I AM…
[ ] anorexic
[X] ednos (undiagnosed)
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[X] hungry
[X] thirsty
[X] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[X] starving yourself (not much lately, unfortunately. >__> starting tomorrow!)
[ ] participating in a fast

PEOPLE…
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[ ] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[X] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[X] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[ ] wish I’d eat more
[X] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos

I WISH…
[X] I was THIN
[X] I had a better body
[X] I didn’t have to eat
[X] I could control myself
[X] I was under 110lbs
[X] I could avoid food
[X] I could hide what I am
[X] I wasn’t fat
[X] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia

I LOVE…
[X] feeling hungry
[X] seeing a difference when fasting
[X] shaking (being cold.)
[X] being weak (but not dizzy.)
[X] losing weight
[X] being anorexic
[XXX] green tea (coffee and tea junkie/snob!)
[ ] diet pills
[X] being able to turn down food
[X] feeling good about myself

APPEARANCE…
[ ] I am shorter than 5′4.
[X] I think I’m ugly sometimes (Sometimes?!)
[X] I have many scars
[ ] I tan easily
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color
[X] I have a tattoo
[XXX] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[X] I had braces
[X] I wear glasses
[ ] I wear contacts
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[X] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger
[X] I have more than 2 piercings
[X] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[ ] I have freckles

FAMILY…
[ ] I’ve sworn at my parents (around, but not "at")
[ ] I’ve run away from home
[ ] I’ve been kicked out of the house
[X] My biological parents are together
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old
[X] I want to have kids someday (I think.)
[ ] I’ve had children
[ ] I’ve lost a child

EMBARRASSMENT…
[ ] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation (I'm a "WTF" person myself.)
[X] Disney movies still make me cry (Dumbo's mother cradling him in her trunk through her cage bars? Niagara Falls.)
[ ] I’ve peed from laughing
[X] I’ve snorted while laughing
[X] I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried
[X] I’ve glued my hand to something (my other hand...lol)
[X] I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose (It didn't come out...it went up inside! A mouthful of diet Coke disappeared into my sinuses! OW!)
[X] I’ve had my trousers rip in public (at work....twice. Talk about FAT-ASS!)

RELATIONSHIPS…
[ ] I’m single
[ ] I’m in a relationship
[X] I’m engaged
[ ] I’m married
[ ] I’ve gone on a blind date
[X] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper (I think its about even, actually.)
[X] I miss someone right now
[X] I have a fear of abandonment
[X] I’ve cheated in a relationship (admittedly. Horrible thing to do to someone. Haven't done it since.)
[ ] I’ve gotten divorced
[X] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back
[X] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t
[X] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did
[X] I’ve kept something from a past relationship

SEXUALITY…
[X] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex
[X] I’ve had a crush on a teacher
[X] I am a cuddler
[X] I’ve been kissed in the rain
[X] I’ve hugged a stranger
[ ] I have kissed a stranger

HONESTY…
[X] I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t
[X] I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t (Like eating Girl Scout cookies today...)
[X] I’ve snuck out of my house
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world (Ana?)
[X] I’ve cheated while playing a game
[X] I’ve cheated on a test
[ ] I’ve been suspended from school

BAD TIMES…
[X] I’ve consumed alcohol
[ ] I drink regularly
[ ] I can’t swallow pills
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[X] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression
[X] I shut others out when I’m upset
[ ] I take anti-depressants (used to...wouldn't mind having them back)
[ ] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS. (not clinically diagnosed)
[X] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it
[X] I’ve hurt myself on purpose
[X] I’m addicted/ have been addicted to self harm
[X] I’ve woken up crying (dreamt my mom died once... :( Worst dream ever!)
[X] I’ve lost weight
[X] I’ve gained weight
[X] My weight holds me back
[X] Weight consumes me.
[X] I’m at my thinnest (since I graduated high school 5 years ago)
[ ] I’m at my biggest
[ ] I’ve lost weight and kept it off
[X] I’ve lost weight but gained it back
[X] My weight affects my mood
[X] I weigh myself daily
[X] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[ ] I thrive on compliments (I like them but don't expect them)
[X] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[X] I feel happy when I’m hungry
[X] I get depressed after I eat
[X] I’ve skipped a meal
[X] I’ve thrown food away
[X] I’ve spit food out
[X] I’ve fasted
[ ] I’ve taken diet pills
[X] I’ve used laxatives
[ ] I’ve purged
[ ] Bulimia
[ ] Orthorexia
[ ] Over-exercising
[X] Binge eating
[ ] I exercise (not much)
[ ] I exercise so I can eat
[ ] I work out secretly
[ ] I work out daily
[ ] I exercise to counteract eating
[ ] I’ve fainted from exhaustion

I’VE DONE…
[X] Weed (drug of choice)
[X] Cigarettes
[X] Alcohol
[ ] Diet pills
[ ] Pain killers
[X] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[X] Mushrooms (other drug of choice)
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine

<>OTHER QUESTIONS
[X] I keep my eating habits a secret
[X] I have an ED blog (and I LOVE it!)
[X] I look at thinspo
[X] I collect thinspo
[X] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[X] I count calories
[X] I’ve had negative intake days
[X] I avoid food
[X] I hate food (see below)
[X] I love food, it’s a love/hate relationship
[X] I want to be this way
[ ] I don’t want to be like this
[X] I wish I could have more control
[X] Being thin is my top priority sometimes
[X] I don’t want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[X] I’m doing this for me
[ ] I’m doing this for someone
[X] I’m doing this to prove myself


Okay, I think its time to go to bed now. Hope you enjoyed my survey. :)

peace

Emily