Friday Post

Yes, I'm posting on a Friday. Why? Because I called in sick. Mostly because of the cold I got two days ago but also very slightly because I wanted a Mental Health Day and what better reason than "I'm sick?"

So I'm sitting home on my computer, blowing my nose every 10 minutes and trying not to binge.

I think I've already eaten around 500 calories. I need to stop.

I got that job yesterday. Yay! "Meet the new boss, same as the old boss." I'm the same person I was before, except now with the official title and (not gonna lie) pretty nifty pay raise. In celebration I got a reuben because I was craving one and allowed myself that one indulgence, though I paid for it when I stepped on the scale this morning.

Yikes!

For a BRIEF moment pre-reuben I was 145 even.

140-fuckin-5!

Then I blew it on a sandwich and gained nearly 5 lbs (and probably a good amount of waterweight) back.

Its not worth it ladies. Put the sandwich down. Its not worth it.

Food rewards are not nearly as rewarding as how you look in the mirror, decreasing numbers on the scale, or buying new clothes.

I learned my lesson. A starved sick body is going to burn a lot of calories trying to get well again. And I'm going to let my sniffling self burn its way back to 145. Because thats my next goal!!

I can go back there. I have faith.

Stay strong ladies....I'm going back to bed.

XX


Emily