Absence

Okay so I haven't posted in a month and I'm sorry. The fiance and I have actually been good lately and working so damn much keeps me busy and hungry so the last month I have been an enormous whale slob and have been eating a lot but still have only gained between 3-5 lbs (figure that one out). But with a new year and being so depressed and slobbish I am ready to get back on the horse and get back in the game, full swing. (okay, enough cliches). I saw 148.7 briefly before my relapse into "normalcy" and I liked it too much to let the possibility of being in the 140's again slip away forever. I'm on my period, I'm disgusting, I have a big bloated belly, I AM MAKING A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT TO GET SOME ADDERALL TOMORROW GOD DAMMIT (I keep putting it off) I am going to take care of my life on the only day off I have, I will get up early, I need control of something before I fucking burst


sorry for the ramble but MY GOD my mind has been a clusterfuck lately and I really need something to put my mind towards.


Time to get back on my horse.