Not the Gumdrop Buttons!

Yeah, I'm watching Shrek.

I have forgotten to mention that my computer (laptop) is finally fixed, so I may be able to post more often. I got some sort of nasty virus and its been down since pretty much last November. I could go on the internet, but that was about it. But Josh finally fixed it after almost a year, so now I can finally use it to its full extent, which includes faster internet browsing. Since I'm not using Josh's computer, which is a PC (on which he can read over my shoulder, and since its HIS computer I couldn't really get on it unless he isn't home) I may be able to post more often, and of slightly more interesting topics (no promises though - lol).

The wedding was great. Family drama was kept to a minimum, I didn't really overdo it on dinner (although 6 beers was a little excessive) and hopefully all the calories were burned off dancing, and best of all I looked better than all of Lydia's friends, the ones I had to hang out with at the bachelorette party that made me self-conscious to the uber-extreme. Normally, like I said before, I can feel like hot shit until I see someone that looks better than me or is wearing something I like better than my own outfit, and then I feel ugly and stupid and self-conscious. Not this time though, something was different. For once, I felt pretty in my outfit. My hair behaved itself for a change, my outfit was better than theirs, my clutch purse looked expensive, and my fiance couldn't keep his eyes off me all night. I danced like a dancing fool, drank some beers in front of my conservative non-drinking parents, and got along with everyone. For what kind of night I expected to have, it went way better. I'm super thankful for that.

Today (thus far) I've had a great day. Not at work (work is NEVER great) but eating-wise. Wanna know how much I've had? 1 sandwich cookie (that I never would have had originally except someone gave it to me) 26 oz of tap water, 2 cups of green tea, 24 oz of coffee, and a diet Coke.

All liquid+only ONE cookie=one happy Emily. Now, when Josh comes home from work in 30 minutes, I'll probably have to eat something. Probably some chicken or maybe a little (gasp) pizza, but its the ONLY thing of substance today. Meaning, it will still be under 1500 and probably even 700.

So even for what may end up being a binge, it won't be all bad, because I planned on eating something tonight. And if I can skate by without eating at all, it turns into a lovely fast day. Everybody wins.

Usually I gain weight in winter (subconscious hibernation philosophy) so I can safely birth my bear cubs in my cave.....er.....I mean....stay warm in the cold weather. I want this winter to be different. I want to go in as a fat girl bundled in warm clothing and come out shedding the warm clothing and extra bulk like a skinny, delicate butterfly. I guess an ultimate challenge for me would be to resist all the cravings that winter brings, and emerge as a newly blossomed flower. Is that too figurative? I'm a little high right now and I'm afraid that everything I'm writing isn't making any sense. All I know is I want to fast this week, because fasting today was waaaaay too easy. My, how quickly I went from "Fasting? No can do!" to "Fasting? I could probably do it all week!". I wonder how long I could tolerate fasting for...new challenge?

Thank you so much for your kind words on my last post, SBB. :) It really made my day, made me feel a lot better, and best of all made me smile. <3

Oh, and after looking through pages and pages of templates, I finally settled on one, at least for now. Tell me what you think of the new layout. Thanks again, to SBB, for posting the site you got your layout from. I didn't know where to find any!

Okay. Time to go make food for the boy. Stay strong ladies, we can do it!!!

Peace,

Emily