144.7!

That's lower than I've been in a long time! Woot! I've been a good girl lately and it is paying off. Today I've had 600 caloriesand I am stopping for the day. My adderall will kill my appetite for the rest of the day and I should be able to do it! Yesterday was the soup cookoff at work, and I made a delicious white chicken chili. It actually isn't too horrible for calories. And I won second place! $25 gift card! Last year I won first place, which is first place. Some guy made chili with sausage in it and he got first. It wasn't as good as mine, and I'm not even being biased. But I won something either way, so I can't be too upset.

I'm on the employee committee at work and this weekend is the appreciation dinner. I'm paranoid about it. It is a crab leg and prime rib buffet. Yeah, I know. Ritzy. But a buffet?? I need to take it easy. I've been doing good all week in anticipation of it. (Other than the pot brownie I'll be eating tomorrow. First one.) Then I'm getting drunk after the dinner at my cute friend's house. But as we all know, drinking and restriction aren't very good friends. Especially for those of us who get hangovers. So this weekend could be good or bad. Either way, I've done good all week, and I will continue to do so next week.

Speaking of involuntary force feeding, I am not looking forward to thanksgiving. My mom will notice if I eat anything less than a huge plateful. I NEED to be super conscientious that day. I will allow myself to eat, but only moderate portions of everything, followed by extreme restriction the next day to recover. I will also avoid getting sent home with leftovers, unless they are vegetables or turkey, which isn't as bad as potatoes. Fuck, I'll have another one right after that because I have to visit Josh's family too. Why isn't there anything else to do while visiting family but eat??

My cycles fucked up. I had a period, two weeks later I had another period which never fully stopped it just slowed down to a little spotting, and a week later (today) its starting up again. Damn it. I think its something with my birth control. We shall see. Usually I'm pretty regular but this month has been wacky.

144 just makes me so happy. Four pounds away from the 130's. A range I haven't been at in...10 years maybe? I think I coasted through high school in the 140's, until the end when I started gaining a bit more. I am so stoked. 139, here I come!!!

It is 63 degrees the second week in Wisco. This is crazy shit. If it isn't this nice this weekend I will be pissed. Nice during the work week, cold and shitty on the weekend? Bullshit. I should check the forecast.

Well lovies I need to get ready for work. Don't eat today! Stay strong!

Love, Emily