"I Love the Way You Lie" makes me want to bawl every time I hear it.
Which is unfortunate because its usually on one of three pop stations around here at least 409 times a day.
Events yesterday make it more relevant......
What do you do when the worst enemy of the one you love is his own psyche?
What do you do when you can't fix/help him, or afford to?
How much do you take until you can't take it anymore?
Is my happiness so important to leave him to his own devices?
He'd kill himself. Could I even live with myself?
Or am I dooming myself to a lifetime of pain watching him self destruct? I can't turn the other way knowing whats happening.
Who do I open up to when I can't tell my best friend how I feel because my problem lies with him?
I know this isn't the right forum to bring this up, it has nothing do with my weight.
I don't fucking have anyone else.
I am so lost. I am so scared. I am alone.
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- Emily
- I'm a lifetime student of the School of Self-Loathing. I feel like I have no control over anything in my life and I want to control something I know I can. I want to be thin. I want to use starving as self destruction and thinness as a means of getting what I want. This is my Ana blog...my Analog. Email me at: negativespaceblog@gmail.com
2 comments:
I've been in this situtation before, I know how you feel - how difficult it is to cope with someone elses problems when you don't know how to cope with your own, and yet how difficult it is to imagine giving them up.
Sometimes, there are situations where you have to accept that there is no way to save the other person, and you have to try and save yourself before it's too late, but it's never that simple.
In my case, he killed himself. I'm learning to live with it. But I think I will always hate myself for it.
Good luck, I hope he realises he's very lucky to have a friend like you x
you know before I was married, I was engaged to a guy that was lost in himself. He's had a tragedy in his life, and he smoked too much weed and drank away his sorrows. He really loved me. I really loved him. But we were both unhappy and he was self destructing.
and I couldn't save him. So I had to at least save myself.
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