Wasted

I already have a lot of stuff packed up, even though I'm not moving for two weeks. (Can we say, a LITTLE excited to move??) My books are all packed up, and in a box underneath three other heavy boxes. Two days ago I got the motivation to move those boxes, and dig one book out that I will keep out, even after we move, and will be the first book to end up back on my bookshelf when settling in to my new place.

My copy of Wasted.

I've only read it once, but as soon as it was done, it went into my mental "Books to Reread" list. Now is the time. Last time I read it, it was so triggering I was able to drop 10 pounds in a matter of weeks. It helps put me in the right mindset to make some significant changes to my recent habits and get me back on track for good. And just in time - since restarting it, I'm already down 2 lbs, and avoided 2 binge temptations, and went to bed hungry last night! This time, I'm reading it with a pencil, so I can underline the passages I particularly enjoy or relate to, so next time when I'm looking for a quick burst of motivation, I can flip through and read my underlined passages. Plus it will make it easier to share some passages on Blogger.

After that I will do the same with Wintergirls, another book I very much enjoyed. (If anyone has any more suggestions for good ED reading, please let me know! Wasted and Wintergirls are the only ones I've read so far!)

So, like I said earlier, I'm down 2 lbs. 2 lbs away from those infernal 140's, again. This time, I'm determined to sail through the 140's, and stay out for good. I realized yesterday that I'm within 3-4 months of my one year anniversary of starting this blog, which is about the same time I decided my life, my weight, my body needed permanent changes. I need to make significant progress in the next few months, or it was all in vain. I need to make the next few months count. I am bound and determined.

So anyway. Once I'm done with Wasted again I'll post some passages that I liked and related to.

So far, its doing wonders. I almost feel like I'm being held accountable to Marya. And she was better at it than I am.

And sometimes I feel a tinge of sadness because I know thats not her purpose for writing the book. But when the whole book is about her struggle and it only gets wrapped up and she gets "better" in the last few pages of the book, quickly ending the story like M. Night Shaymalan (sp?) ends his movies abruptly, its very easy for the reader to focus on the disease, not the cure. Thats why its so triggering. Its mainly about the disease.

But anywho.

I was hoping writing wouldn't take as long as it did....I had some more packing I wanted to do, now I only have four minutes til I have to go to work. So ummm....I guess this ends here.

Love you all! Go P.D. for fitting into a size 2 dress! Woweee!

xoxo