I just noticed something about myself. I'll come on Blogger and catch up on Ana related things, I'll go on Facebook and lurk around for a few minutes, then I'll come RIGHT back to Blogger really quick, like I can't stand to be away from it for more than a few moments.
That just goes to show you, I feel more love here than I do on Facebook.
Thank you so much for that. <3 This is where I feel the most love out of any area in my life. If I knew this was here I would have done it 5 years ago.
All Facebook does is serve to remind me how much better all my friends are doing than me. How nice they look, how nice their jobs are, how they actually FINISHED college. Hmph.
I've actually cried after going on Facebook. Multiple times. Sometimes [lots of times] it makes me feel like shit. Like it isn't enough that I have competition in real life, and when I run into someone in person I have to update them on everything I've been up to (read: nothing). But now I have scads of people who can see EVERY DAY that I am boring and lame and up to nothing and ugly and fat and a worthless human!
But here, I am loved no matter my status. I am forgiven for my faults. I am always striving for a goal that we all share which I can not share with anyone in the real world.
I love you girls so much. You are my thinspiration. :)
XO
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- I'm a lifetime student of the School of Self-Loathing. I feel like I have no control over anything in my life and I want to control something I know I can. I want to be thin. I want to use starving as self destruction and thinness as a means of getting what I want. This is my Ana blog...my Analog. Email me at: negativespaceblog@gmail.com
3 comments:
Aww!!! I feel the EXACT same way. I'm completely addicted to this place, and all of you here, just because it feels so damn good to know that not only am I NOT alone in all of this, but I'm supported and cared for, too...and I can't be cared for this way by anyone in my day to day life...which sucks, but anyway, enough about me...
You are NOT a fat, worthless human (though I know how it is to feel that way)...You are AWESOME. Seriously. No foolin'. You are thinspiration to us, just as we are to you. I feel so privileged to be one of your followers, and to have you follow me. So...thanks? :P
I can't think...I'm braindead and sore from too much chewing and spitting. Yes. Horrible. I know.
I hope your day goes well, lovely!
<3
P.D.
wow. it's kind of hard to think of something original to comment, because the two before me have summed it up pretty nicely.
however, i will say that all of us feel like losers at one point.
so just know that we love you, loser status or not (:
i guess we're kind of a dysfunctional family, huh?
xoxoxo :)
you have personally been such a supportive person for me- even waaaaaaay back when I was living in Mississippi and I thought I was going to die of lonliness and I just felt like I had noooothing (WELL, as a matter of fact all I had was a mattress, a computer and a lot of ciggys) but I quit smoking...I didnt really want to, but I knew it was the right thing, ugh...
anyways, I've made this comments about me and its supposed to be about you.
I get excited eveerytime that you've posted a new post, (hah), for me to comments on, and when you comment for mine-- I dunno. Here I just feel like I have friends, and on facebook-- well, nobody really remembers me anymore. you are close to the people that are in your life, and I'm so far away I'm not in anyones life anymore. except my husband. and hes leaving.
but I know I wont reaaally be alone, because I'll have you girls! :)
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