Happy St. Patty's Day!

Well I knew today would be bad. But I didn't know it would be pizza-for-breakfast bad. (Josh, what were you thinking, bringing home pizza??) I'm keeping it at two slices cause I'm already full. I made myself salsa-and-sour cream dip last night for the potluck today at work (in addition to the 17 lbs of meat I had to brown for one big-ass batch of sloppy joes for everyone! Thank god Josh helped me or I'd STILL be browning meat!) and in a moment of weakness I dipped into it a little. But not too bad. Otherwise, yesterdays liquid fast was a success! I only had about 400 cals collectively. Some juice, some protein shake, some of those drink packets (lo-cal ones), and some hard candy cals because I was feeling too weak.

Today I have to eat. People ask me at work as it is why I don't eat there [thankfully I'm not the only one who doesn't eat at work so I don't stand out, though the other people are guys. Either way, I eat occasionally] and I can't not eat at my own potluck that I coordinated and brought 17 lbs of sloppy joes for. I'll try to keep it rational size though, a little of this, a little of that. Then tonight, depending on if anyone invites me or not, I may go out for St. Patty's Day, though I really don't feel like it so if I don't get invited I won't be totally bummed. Then tomorrow will be another liquid fast recovery day, then Friday I have off because we're going up north to visit Josh's family for the weekend, whom we haven't seen since July. It will be really hard to fast all weekend but I'll try.

My rule will be bring a water bottle and some lo-cal juice packets, and never stop drinking while I'm there. If I'm offered food I'll try to politely decline or take the smallest small amount, say I haven't been feeling the best since the potluck, did someone spike the sloppy joes, hahaha whatever. His uncle is getting re-married so there may be a little food involved on Saturday but I'll try my best to behave. For all of you, for myself. I need this so bad. And a weekend of good behavior will, in my mind, rectify the food sins of Monday and today. Today was planned, Monday was most certainly not. Then next week I will attempt a week long liquid fast! (Anyone with me??)

So yeah, thats where I'm at. How did everyone do on their liquid fasts yesterday?

Anyone with me next week? Sunday to Sunday? Its a big leap of a challenge for me to try, a week long, but I'm up for a challenge. Maybe thats why I have had no control lately, I don't have a system laid out. I need something set in place so I know my rules and boundaries. I'll give it a try though. If I can get through a week successfully I will get myself a small reward for liquid fasting a whole week!

Alright, time to start calling apartment buildings for tours. Nobody ever answers their goddamn phones. Aren't you losing money on an empty apartment?? I figured the managers would pick up on the first ring! Either way, I'm so excited to move, and I'm already bringing home tons of boxes from work! We aren't even moving for two months but I don't feel like doing all my packing the night before (even though I procrastinate so bad it will most likely end up that way).

Wow....this is longer than I planned on. Sorry for all the mind garbage I just spewed on you all.

Okay....bye!

Emily